I recently learned another man I loved passed away. We hadn't been in touch in several years, but I thought about reaching out to see how he is doing. I hoped to see him happy and living somewhere away from the city, but instead my digging revealed he had passed away. We did love each other, but we both had alot of issues and emotional pain stemming from childhood. It just reminded me life is short and moments are so special. As this blog grows I promise to open up about the deep pain I have had since I was young, but for now let's focus on love and pain. When you are in deep emotional pain it is so hard to see the light. I have been working on expectations, setting boundaries, and embracing love and light even when surrounded in darkness. More than anything else this is the only option in life. So much cruelty is in the world so please embrace any happiness. There are people who will love you. There are people who will respect you. There are people who will believe you and more important believe in you. So much of my life has been temporary so I'm learning to deeply appreciate every memory, every moment, and enjoy the now. I believe in God and he can see the bigger picture. We have a role to play and there are possible reasons for everything. We have to accept what is and seize any opportunity in our path for happiness and light. The cold reality is there are some atrocities to humanity, and those people may not have much opportunity to turn to happiness so please appreciate how lucky you are in this life. You have a purpose.